Back in May we hosted a conference on healing of emotions and memories with Lin Button and her team from London. I was looking forward to this and was in charge of coordinating worship times. As we got closer to the conference I found myself exhausted and that it was difficult to worship. Worship leading was hard and dry. It was becoming hard work. I was feeling disconnected.
The morning before the conference I was feeling it even more, that worship was getting further from me and harder - like I didn't have it in me. The thought of picking music and leading it felt like despair.
Then the thought came to me as I was walking: "Worship is where breakthrough happens, more than in teaching. Of course the Enemy is attacking your worship." At that moment the despair lifted and I knew I needed to press in to God in worship no matter how I felt.
But it really helped to feel freer to move into it because of that encounter with Jesus on the trail.
